The Engtovo Chronicles

I’ve been thinking a lot lately about the true spiritual path. From all angles we see the result of the intellectual spiritual path. It doesn’t matter whether it is mainstream religion or various other spiritual traditions. There appears to be an overwhelming desire to conquer the spiritual through books, classes and workshops. 

There are even those who wander from healing session to healing session and feel they’re on a spiritual journey when they are obviously on a journey to be healed by something outside of themselves. Certainly that is not to say that getting assistance in your healing from a spiritual healer, an alternative practitioner or using herbs and supplements to better your health is in any way a wrong path. Like the spiritual journey though the healing journey ultimately comes back to self and whether you are ready to allow any modality to give you the healing relief you seek. 

More often than not a healing journey that has not come to any kind of successful healing is a calling to a higher spiritual quest and the soul is using the body to get you to pay attention to the true desire of the soul to raise its vibration. For many that start a healing journey that transitions into spiritual seeking, the natural tendency is to turn to books and outside authorities because that is the path that was taken to find answers to healing dilemmas. A journey focused on healing the physical though is not the same as a spiritual path. 

A true spiritual path is filled with revelations. Each one builds upon those received previously. When too much research is done via books and workshops or visiting channelers the mind creates a belief system and when the person begins to have revelations the mind will attempt to force the interpretation of the revelation into the belief system already established. If someone exhibited extremely good discernment skills throughout the research time period then the belief system established would be a good one and no problem would be posed. I have rarely come upon someone who is that good at discerning however. 

If you believe you may have already crossed the line of “too much information” and are concerned that this will corrupt your revelations the best course of action is to consciously practice not interpreting waking or meditative visions and dreams at all. Record them but assume nothing about them. Tell yourself that they will make themselves clear at a time and place when there have been enough revelations for a foundation separate from the previous belief system to stand firmly on its own. Allowing an open mind in this fashion can release previous limitation for a willing soul. This is the way that those who have been immersed in a particular religious dogma all their lives overcome the teaching they have received and find the core truth that started the religion to begin with. Often those in this situation keep all their revelations to themselves or they are ostracized within their religious community and others will attempt to bring them back in line with the group belief system. 

A path of revelation is not an easy one. Particularly in the Metaphysical / New Age / Pagan philosophies there are many who want to be different. They are seeking to be perceived as special. They want the gifts more than the truth and many of them want the gifts in order to sell themselves so they can support themselves in a way they perceive will be more joyous. In a world that values humans so little and values money so much understanding how people come to that emotional place is easy. Having a gift however does not make you spiritual or put you on a spiritual path. Joining a coven for example is no different than joining a church in that is doesn’t mean you actually know anything. It is more than anything an expression of community and friendship, the true spiritual path requires only you. 

I am always astounded by how many people will wax on and on about spirit and when you get into a deeper conversation you come to find they have no experience with spirit at all. They have read all the books they know the lingo and they think they are on a spiritual path. Because our world values book learning over other types of learning these are the most prevalent people to become the teachers and writers that then spawn another generation of people with no experience. They make a good living and are seen as the experts in the field while those who are actually on the path shake their heads in amusement and or disgust.

I know people who have incredible amounts of accurate spiritual information. Some of them have integrated a big chunk of it and have an amazing foundation for the rest of the path. The problem is they never take the rest of the path! They are unwilling to step away from the comfort level where they exist and allow themselves the time, or dedication to bring spiritual revelation into their lives. The reason this matters is that neither I nor anyone else who have received revelations can convey them to you. I can share my experience to the best of my ability but the majority of it is beyond word or teaching. It was felt, it was known in the moment. Often times in a long meditation with several revelations the memory of the events of the revelation are not even recalled intellectually by the time it is complete. It is integrated and becomes a part of you.

Many people have questioned me over the years about why I don’t lose faith. There are times I do lose faith is my first response, beyond that though is that even in those moments I know it is temporary and false. Inside of me I know I am simply processing feelings of fear or doubt but that it is just a feeling and not the truth. The reason I know this is because the revelations that came before these moments have created inside me something that is beyond the transitory emotions or frustrations of my mind. 

I can’t count the number of people who are seeking proof. I doubt that any of them if they were to offer up a scenario that they would see as proof, and then that scenario came to pass, would accept it as truth or proof. The revelations you experience show you things beyond our normal senses so when it comes to proof, you know it has already been given within, and by the time it manifests without it is just the natural progression of what you already know and you don’t find it particularly impressive or necessarily noteworthy. 

I know one person who makes a big deal of calling the rains and his services in that respect and expects big gifts to do this for people all the while saying he is doing it freely and accepting donations. One day another person who knows him as well and is a person of revelations, was saying it had been dry and he asked God for some rain quite casually, something he asks God for regularly and always receives. The conversation shifted to the other man and he was talking about his work as a rain caller. I said to him “you called the rains just today and you do that all the time”. He had so integrated this ability with his ongoing revelations that he never connected it with rain calling. The one who is out doing rain calling as a job is filled with ego about his ability that he has had since a child. The one on the path of revelation had developed the ability simply by aligning with God and Earth and knowing from his revelations that they will respond to every good request. He said “well I guess I did call the rains I never thought about it that way; I just can’t imagine why God would deny me rain where rain is needed when I asked, so I gave it no further thought.”  

People are often in conflict with things I say on the blog and usually they are people with no direct experience with spirit. I get emails where people will blast me with the line “this book says…” There are a small amount of books out there written by people who are really on the journey, but once again just because they have shared their experience does not convey the truth of that true knowledge to the reader. The real point of anyone one on the path of revelation writing a book is to inspire others to go within and perhaps to help them form a basic foundation of terminology to help them understand what is happening to them as they progress. If you read those books but then go no farther you are simply occupying your mind like the reading of a book on any other subject. It is not necessarily a bad thing as a whole. It allows some people to be well rounded or even open minded but it cannot replace the true work. 

The main reason people avoid the true path is fear. It is not for the faint of heart. It is hard. You will have to face all your inner demons, all your family issues, all your pain. At some points in that process you may experience physical illness attempting to process this inner darkness to raise your vibration. Some people die during one of these times others come close to death many times over the course of 20-40 years of processing. Being enlightened is the moment of seeing there is something more then the obvious life most people see. When you know there is something more you cannot stop knowing it. The question is will you then pursue that by seeking within until all of God’s truth has been revealed? That is the path. 

Anyone can wake up (be enlightened) very few do anything about it, some attempt to go back to sleep. Some try and cope with just knowing there is something more by blocking out time with mind altering substances. I have never met a person that has received revelation that did not reach a point where they knew they must no longer ingest any mind altering substance. Only so much can be revealed under the influence, the rest of the revelations will not come until you are sober so your vibration can continue to rise to the level of those revelations. Just intellectually knowing this one issue itself is enough to stop many people from even attempting to take the path. They are not willing to give up their stress relief and in all honesty I understand why they want to keep it. Even those of us who have been on this path a long time wish we could step off for a week or a month, take a spiritual vacation, as it were. I really don’t have a problem with people who choose not to take this journey. I do have a problem with them claiming that they are taking it when they are clueless, let alone the arrogance of thinking they are qualified to teach it to others when they are not doing it themselves. 

I’m not sure why this is on my mind this week. I have been thinking a lot of how easy it is to be swayed by the thoughts, feelings and fears of those around us. It is easy to substitute the belief of a group for your own when you want to feel close and bond with others. Spiritual community whether a church or a drumming group can be a nurturing loving thing. It can also become a detriment to the truth path as you attempt to fit in and mold your revelations to be acceptable to those whose approval you want or need. Often times the path is lonely no matter how much time you spend with others because there is no way to share these elements of your knowing that have become you. On the rare occasion you meet some one else who has gone though the same levels of revelations as yourself and the joy in the kinship is amazing. 

All I can say for sure is that the levels of revelations I have been though have left me knowing without doubt that it is all worthwhile. No matter how much pain and difficulty I have been though on the journey, I would not go back and take a different fork in the road that left me asleep, or left me enlightened but doing nothing about it. There is something alive inside me that grows with every revelation and propels the further work. It radiates with the forthcoming commencement. It repels the fears and doubt of others and moves forward no matter the obstacles presented by the world. It seeks the daily balance between the burden of the knowing what is to come and the gratitude that is inherent in moving every step closer to divine expression. 

We have moved into the final days of this cycle of the earth and building your foundation of revelations is more important than ever. What has been common sense in regard to things like earth changes is meaningless now. We each need to trust the inner self and follow that even when the advice seems counter intuitive or contradicts long held belief systems. You cannot trust intellectual knowledge for this time on earth it could only take you so far even in the best of times and the best of times are over. If you have been resisting the path of revelation it is time to get on with it or prepare to leave the planet. Although you are not required to take this path, those who will become the builders of the new world are all people who have chosen to take it.