The Engtovo Chronicles

After a friend seeing the Melchizeldek symbol which is a triangle with a circle inside it she said she had been drawing it all her life but with a line across the circle and wondered what that meant.  I wondered too that night a dream came and i shot off the info below to her

March 26, 2004 Dream

I go to a place that has lockers that are like post office boxes, I go to the one that I know is mine.  I start to work the combination but then all the numbers on it disappear and it starts to glow like the Timex indiglo color.  At first I am dismayed like I won’t be able to open it because there are no numbers but then I put my hand back on it and make a couple turns then turn and push in simultaneously and the whole locking mechanism comes out and I open the door.  Undoing the lock feels really good, the knowing was just there and it was effortless.  Some time during this process I am thinking about the fact that I had forgotten the combination to this box and thought I would never be able to get into it again, so I had gotten a different box that is also in this place somewhere.  I think after I get the stuff out of here I should check that box.  Someone else is with me but I am not aware of who it is. I take the stuff out and it is 4 pouches of stones (stone is records knowing revealed in the sacred path cards), one is the main stone pouch that I keep with me even when everything else is in storage.  I open one pouch and take out two stone pieces that are wrapped in tissue paper, I realize without unwrapping them that they are my set of Kyanite (which is balance they work with all kinds of polarity/duality issues in healing work) and so I put them back in the pouch.  On the bottom of this container that came out of the locker like a safe deposit box there is some candy some caramels and something else. I am thinking I have been really good on my diet and not eating that stuff and I am wondering how to avoid the temptation to eat them.  Then a little ways away I see some “workers” of this locker place (somehow I know they are illuminati workers) I don’t like them and I know they don’t want me to get out of there with my stuff. I hear them say that is the locker where they put the stuff of the woman they killed but they knew it would be found eventually, but they are suspicious of who I am.  The person who was with me has gone and gotten a car and is waiting for me to get in and is going to take me to the outer parking lot where my car is.  It’s a woman and I am running next to the car as it is moving and jump in with all my pouches as the workers want to stop me, I left all the candy behind.  We take off and I can see the gate is open and we will get out of there no problem.

I awake knowing that the symbol with the line is a key.  The line represents an equator for lack of a better term the balance of polarities or dualities depending on which is being worked with.  The concept works differently with a polarity vs. a duality because a polarity is natural like hot or cold and the equator there is the temperature that is comfortable to the body where you don’t feel hot or cold. The example given in the dream for me personally is duality of an addiction, the sugar that is not in balance with my body (the addiction) is at both poles and leaving the sugar behind was choosing the equator. The line across my personal sphere.  Balance of a duality. 

Shit, just realized you probably don’t know about the sphere guess I better take a few steps back.  I popped open my Kundalini energy flow in 1992 which was the reason for my marriage we did this reflection thing and once we both had our Kundalini open we were complete, that was the primary aspect of our spiritual contract and the results of all of what we did carried on for many years of growth.  But after the Kundalini is open there is this whole series of energy activations that happen,  it starts with what would look like a medicine wheel and we are traveling around the outside of it all the time (the wheel of life) and at some point after the Kundalini opens you have to start the trail to the center.  So as we are cruising around the outside, in meditation when we see a path we take it and what that entails is affected by whether we are entering from the e, s, w, or n.  At any rate eventually you get to the middle and from there you move the center circle out to encompass the outer circle which was that wheel of life.  The point that this happens is what is called that nirvana or Samadhi stage where all meditation and most daily life stuff is bliss.  This is where most spiritual practitioners get stuck, cause lets face it’s a great place to be and also so many of the teachings have said that is the goal, when in fact that is the beginning of the journey if you want to ascend and live the true unlimited life.  The next step from there is to take that circle and create it into a spherical grid around you and this is totally different than the luminous egg which is the energy everyone has. After that there are numerous activations and so forth that bring more energy flows into the sphere and when those are finished you enter this final purification process and all of sudden, all this profound connection and pure love and bliss you felt appears to go out the window and you are right in the middle of all you crap.  I entered that stage in late 90s and was beginning to wonder if it would EVER end.  Now this information and that symbol is the key to bringing that to an end.  I have been planning to write up all the details of those stages and activations for many years but it hasn’t felt the right time yet, I think I have been too deep in my own clearings and the information may have been contaminated by that.

When Lee and I met I already had formed my sphere and activated a bunch of things and right after we met him just being in the energy of my sphere caused him to pop through his head his Kundalini flow and he has been cruising right along ever since, it is like on a spiritual level he felt that sphere and just knew that’s where he was going and set his intentions in that direction, and that is really important, because I spent months in meditation sometimes for 6 or 8 hours at a shot I would come out of it and have no clue that time had passed.  But lee having seen that sphere so to speak got his open by sheer will alone without all that time in meditation.  Now with me these activations were very gentle and for him they are very dramatic and sometimes he has been out of it for a couple days or thought he was dying and stuff cause he would just be doing his normal daily tasks and get hit with energies that would bowl him over.  When we would talk about it and I would ask him to describe exactly what he experienced physical and visions, all of it I would be able to figure out what he activated and at times he was activating two or three things simultaneously.  Its also possible that when the Dharljas who are completely activated that people who already have their Kundalini open and are very high vibration will just do ALL the steps in a day or two just boom be standing forth and not even be aware really of how it happened.  That is part of why spirit has made me aware of all of the steps because other people will be aware of some and not others and it will help to have them all written out.  So in this information I just received that circle in the center is the sphere and the line the center or equator of self.

So getting back to the info.  Spirit told me a long time ago that people see healthy and unhealthy as polarities and this belief caused them to swing from one to another and often without warning, they say things like you can just loose your health in an instant.  But the Dharljas know that is duality because the body was created to heal it self and total balance is its natural state.  Aging and any unnatural state is caused by our belief system not by any natural phenomena so like the addiction, the perception of health and lack of health and aging are all at both poles and the center line is the balance.

Part of this comes to the point of how the Dharljas do certain things like create heat to make a cold place comfortable they use this grid structure of that sphere with the line across with hot at one pole and cold the other they have taken that center line and expanded it until it fills their whole sphere and becomes pure love from there they have full control of the elements of heat and cold. 

They told me after I woke that the concept in the dream of the stuff belonging to the woman they “killed” was in reference to the fact that the illuminati do whatever they can to kill the self empowerment of us all and keep us enslaved, as us being in our true power is the greatest threat to their power.  I have been one of the dead, but they knew that I would be one of the people who would find my way eventually, much to their dismay J.  The rocks represented my true knowing and mastery of both polarity and duality, the one being my small medicine bag, my power, and the balance of the kyanite and also there being 4 pouches when the four is the number of the earth, having my power on the earth. Also the indiglo color, a blue color, ascended beings have a blue glow to their sphere of energy.  That’s one of things we first learned about channeling that if you had doubt about an entity channeling that claimed to be ascended, whether an ascended master or archangel to ask to see their blue light, if you are not a visual person as a first gift you may sense it  instead of see it but you will know you have experienced it if you don’t know that then you haven’t J  They were talking about how the grid workers for the global elite use that same grid to attempt to control us they take a truth, the center line, and surround it on all sides by some untruth and attempt to compress it until it is so small that it is hard to find that truth.  Then those who do find that truth look crazy to all the people who are out in that world sphere of planet earth, both poles left and right wing so to speak, think you are crazy causing most people to doubt the truth they have found and give into the pressure of the group consciousness by conforming and moving away from the line/equator towards one pole or the other

Both Lee and I have been under surveillance a long time, both from CIA, NSA, FBI, various black ops people and remote viewers and global elite people who work the grids to hold the power over the people.  The last couple years we have unraveled a number of their grids and Lee has been followed in the flathead a few different times.  It is interesting to note though that they used to harass us a lot but the farther we have gotten on the journey they have backed off, they are already fearful of what we can do as fully empowered people and think if they leave us alone maybe we will get delayed in the day to day worldly stuff.  They know that it is our plan after we stand forth, complete our ascension to share all of it with anyone who wants to know and see what an empowered person can do, and that the creator intended all of us to live that way, not to live in economic mental, and spiritual  slavery to the global elite.  That will expand the line of truth exponentially which is the Dharlja’s plan for the next few years knowing we are not far from the earth changes makes it the perfect time because it will cause some chaos.  With many people being so fearful of the expressions of divine humans that they will think it must be satan or aliens or trickery or who knows what all.

Well lets see think I went off on a tangent J  they were explaining some things on the polarity and using temperatures as a example but also said to think about solstice and equinox which do you prefer and I immediately thought well equinoxes but I never knew why but I immediately knew it was because I was seeking balance and that equinoxes are the balance point for the earth’s light so its was natural for me to want to align with her in that way to assist my healing journey.

Then they started talking about the teaching that metaphysics teaches of letting go of negativity and choosing joy or not coming down below neutral into negative emotions.  I always saw this in my mind as negative at the bottom, neutral in the middle, and joy up top, they said put this into the sphere and line, again see negativity at both poles and joy and neutral are both at the line and it was an aha moment that they excel at confusing something that is duality, into the thought that it is polarity.  Polarity puts joy and negativity as opposite, but negativity is not a natural state, only natural states have polarity therefore it is duality, and duality always controls both poles with the same negative thought, idea, behavior, and belief.  Like they would put democrat on one pole and republican on the other and tell us they are polarity and are opposites, when they are both the exact same negative power mongers who enslave us.  All voted to gut our rights with the patriot act for example.  On every issue that matters to the global elite getting more control of us they all vote the same.  They are duality big time J

So the key of that symbol is finding that line for every issue and expanding it to encompass the whole sphere and turn it over to pure divine love, whether it is polarity or duality, because for a polarity it gives us the ability to affect polarity which is our divine right as Dharjas so that part is part of the ascension process to gain those abilities, like controlling the temperature.  For duality is takes the negativity of the duality issue and moves it out of the sphere clearing and purifying it and replacing it with love, also moving us to ascension.  They said that once someone has their sphere activated they can begin the practice of visualizing this even before they have reached the stage of final purification, because it will become a positive habit that will speed things up for their process (now they tell me!)

They were talking later about addiction as example with addiction being at both poles and to quit an addiction you have to find that line and be able to hold it long enough to quit and be free of the compulsion that goes with the addiction to continue, or go back to the thoughts and behaviors, and that every force on the planet that the global elite have put into motion is working against you in that endeavor, but that once all of the sphere is free of the addiction the triangle (in truth pyramid) must follow suit filling it all with love and that then creates the return of balance in relation to the addiction that is the true natural state of the person, it is in the blueprint, as it were, that God holds out for us, and as that love then takes over the pyramid the process creates the SO BELOW energy bringing the full healing ending the addiction forever making that Enochian Star, the Enochian symbol, with that complete, the other circle of energy will naturally form bringing that Michaelian symbol into the picture protecting the person from that duality issue forever, a complete grid of all three orders Melchizeldek, Enoch and Michael that no longer has a line or equator. Completion.  The same is true of a polarity issue when the mel symbol with the line has been completely expanded with love the Enochian Star will form making the SO BELOW then the Michaelian Circle and when this trinity grid is complete the person will have control over the natural polarity in question.

Its universal law and unfortunately the world scumbags have been aware of and using this universal law to control everyone’s personal energy to keep them from finding these truths and using them.

Then they gave me this interesting example that they use against us and it is how they use the duality of good and bad, wanting us to believe they are polarity and we need to choose to be good or bad people.  One aspect they spoke of was like using the bible and the “thou shalt not kill” commandment, but then making exceptions that confuse the masses, like controversial capital punishment, that it’s ok for society to kill people who do bad things, and then there is self defense, which is readily acceptable to people, and then there is accidental, like a car accident, but then we have to decide if there was negligence in that and on and on with juries and no absolute guideline, and then it is all diluted to where we have the abortion debate, and the question of what is life, that they have the world so confused about killing and what is good and what is bad that they either don’t know, or they take a side and are certain they are correct so much so that the good Christian will kill the abortion doctor completely believing he is in the right and good.  That people believing they are good can be just self righteous and arrogant making both good and bad the dualities that inhabit both poles and at that center line is Divine Love, they sure don’t want us to find that, because from divine love we need no laws to tell us how to live.

At any rate I went into meditation in the afternoon and started working on these lines and pushing them out to the sphere and after a while I ran out of them and felt really awesome then I heard someone talking about the brain and saying maybe not today or something so of course I said yes today right now what’s the brain thing.  They said well the brain was a natural polarity of the body left and right and that this same energy should be applied through it to remove the polarity and so I started working that energy and could feel all the information being transferred back and forth like the left brain had every detail of this life and right brain had all the soul knowledge and they went about the transfer until both sides had all knowledge and they became one there was some kind of permanent pathway created for the whole brain to work as one instead of each having its domain or effecting only one side of the body.  A whole “string” of energy was discarded after that, upon the sharing of info it was determined to be useless.  Then I was back to moving lines into sphere again by the hundreds I don’t even know what most of them were, most must have been small stuff then one would come up that was hard to expand that line.  I heard one guide say I don’t think she can get through all that in one session, and another guide say I don’t know she is pretty determined, well I was when I heard that!  I thought I’m not getting up now and dragging these issues for who knows how far into the future I’ll stay in mediation for hours if I have to these things are going now.  So I did get through that batch.

I also got a vision a blueprint of the Divine Love temple of the retreat towards the end and it had a three sided pyramid at the top with some sort of spire then I saw a vision of some surface on it I was not sure what surface it was but it had some kind of ornate design made out of a charcoal colored metal over kind of an painted surface that was somewhat tan with a little yellowish color and looked sort of adobe surfaced hard to explain but really cool.

Then as I came out of meditation they said be really conscious every time a thought comes that is not in alignment with Divine Love visualize expanding that line into a sphere of love.

Now we get to see if any of this makes sense to anyone other than me hahahaha  Suffice to say with this came the knowing that this is a big and important breakthrough to the next stage which is always good!  The feeling was THIS IS IT  this is what I need to know to complete my standing forth.  And here you’ve been drawing it all your life hahaha guess that means you’re here to ascend!!  Go figure J

 

There are a lot of misconceptions about the Kundalini flow in Eastern Philosophies.  First of all it is seen as a spiraling energy that comes from the root chakra which it affects but is not it’s source.  I think we all probably know the basics of the auric field and 7 basic chakras (although if anyone doesn’t please speak up, there is no level of information required to participate on this list!)  These are the energies that most people are dealing with who are not on an ascension journey.  When a soul comes into a life and they want to have  tremendous spiritual growth, or the potential of ascension, they always plan to open the Kundalini energy flow, which is the first activation of the sacred sphere.

What the Kundalini does, is, it shifts the vibration of your DNA structure. You have a sphere around you that is used in mastery that simply is inactive before the activation of the Kundalini.  On this sphere there are 7 energy centers called the elemental chakras.  One in each of the 4 directions, north is air, west is fire, south is earth, and east is water.   Then you have a body elemental that sits below, a soul elemental that sits within between where the solar plexus and heart chakras are, that connects the soul to the sphere and a divine mind elemental that sits above.  These positions correspond to the 7 totem positions for some of you who may have worked with some of the Native American teachings.  There are also two other totems the primary totems that sit to your right and left.  The original teachings of the medicine wheel are also a way of visualizing the ascension journey and relate the what the Dharljas call the eternal circle

The Kundalini flow is divine energy that enters the body elemental from the higher self and moves up into the root chakra where it activates the DNA creation center that sits slightly higher and on the back side of the body from the root chakra.  This center enacts the shift in vibration programmed in by the higher self while the body was being created in the womb.  In men this is the only time the DNA creation center becomes active, in women the center actives at conception and stays open for about the first 4 weeks of pregnancy for the soul of the baby to attach it’s energies to the body being formed.  Women plan to either have their children before any Kundalini activation, wait until it is complete, or choose to not have children.  The activation of the DNA creation center and shift in vibration during pregnancy beyond the normal 4 weeks would cause loss of the pregnancy.   From there the energy moves upward through all the chakras shifting the vibrational frequency of the DNA as it goes.  When it reaches the soul elemental more energy is added and it continues to move upward until it has moved through the head and leaves through the divine mind elemental chakra above and exits back to the higher self.  This flow then continues forever.  It is a spiral energy and entwines itself around the natural pre Kundalini flow (normal energy flow) that enters the crown chakra on top of the head and goes downward though the chakras exiting the root.

The whole process can take from 6 months to 10 years.  It can begin as early as 6 to 12 months of age.  Many of the very enlightened children that are coming to the planet now have opened their Kundalini fully by the age of  2 or 3.

It is always something we plan for our life and there are a few reasons why.  First higher self must decide how big of a vibrational jump will be made with the Kundalini opening.  The process can be very difficult if a jump that is too large is made.  Many people have died in the process of opening their Kundalini when the higher self either planned to large of a jump, or the person didn’t do the preparation before hand.  What I mean by this is lets say your plan was to start to explore spiritual teachings at the age of 25 and then have your Kundalini begin to open at the age of 35.  If you never started to explore spirituality at 25 that’s 10 years worth of growth and raising your vibration that never occurred.  So when the Kundalini begins to open at 35 you are unprepared for the shift in vibration.  The Kundalini always begins at a prearranged time.  This is one of the misconceptions in the Eastern Philosophy, the belief that you can do anything that will activate the Kundalini flow.  It has been a major frustration of the Yoga community that some without any effort seem to open it while another can spend a whole life of practice and discipline to no avail.

A large vibrational jump can cause intense stress on the body.  Many people recognize the “symptoms” when we talk about it, and realize that their Kundalini has opened, or know exactly where it is in the process. As they have some of the symptoms at each stage, that disappear as mysteriously as they began when the Kundalini moves up to the next stage. 

Stages of the Kundalini and typical issues that may arise:

Root chakra:  colon problems, urinary tract infections, constipation, bad cases can result in colon or prostate cancer.

Navel chakra: Conception problems in woman ovarian cancer, irregular menstrual bleeding, uterine cysts, candida albicans over growth in the intestines, appendicitis, kidney problems, intense discomfort in the minor chakras of the spiritual body that are just below the hip bone in the front on each  side.

Solar Plexus chakra:  gall stones, pancreatic problems, shortness of breath, stomach issues heartburn, ulcers

Heart chakra: palpitations, heart attack (pseudo heart attack in the case of my mother, she had a full blown attack off to the hospital in the ambulance the whole deal.  The paramedics thought she was not doing good when she got to the hospital she had abnormal heart rhythms, typical of cardiac arrest, but upon doing the blood test they could find no evidence that she actually had a heart attack.)  tightness in chest is common.  A feeling of intense pressure on the chest, lung congestion, during both the heart and the throat time period.  A discomfort in the upper minor spiritual chakras that are on the upper chest (slightly up and 1 to 2 inches from the armpit) the discomfort may be felt on the front or in back behind the shoulder blade

Throat chakra: Sore throat, difficulty expressing thoughts, a singer may experience a shift in their voice or an inability to sing for a period.  Thyroid problems, an intense tightness up the spine at the back of the neck, high blood pressure often accompanies this period through the end and may start at the period of the heart chakra.

Mind chakra (third eye)  headaches, vision distortion, a need for glasses, trouble concentrating, pressure in the head the feeling of a band around the forehead, extreme cases aneurysm or stoke

Crown chakra: this is the breakthrough point sometimes people think they are going crazy.  There are often rushes of energy, dizziness, people become ungrounded for a time have trouble staying in their body.

Those are the difficulties however some people have no difficulties and during the process many spiritual gifts begin to open up even for those who do have difficulties.  At the throat for example it is not unusual to develop a new form of  communication with guides, to start writing music or poetry, heart is a common place for people to begin doing spiritual healing work, the root can open up a dialog with the animals or even bring a knowing of how to use certain herbs and knowledge of this nature.  The navel can open new creative gifts, people with no drawing experience for example have started drawing pictures of spirits at this stage or started to make drums and rattles for sacred ceremony that have a very different energy to them, things of this nature.

© 2000 Engtovo Bhodsvatan

The question is what does love look like? This is really a question for every individual seeking a healed relationship

• True love is two people who have seen each other in their perfection!
• It is obvious to anyone and everyone who looks at the two people together.
• No one would question if they were partners.
• When they look into each other’s eyes they cannot help but smile.
• When they are near each other they cannot help but touch.
• When they are apart in a group they will steal glances and smiles across the room.
• It is free of agendas, pure and childlike.
• It happens naturally and there is no need to set up scenarios or control anything. This sight of the Divine Spirit causes the unfoldment.
• It may happen upon meeting for one or both or it could take weeks or months to develop.
• There is friendship that is the best friend relationship for both people. A couple who considers other people to be their best friends will falter in difficulty.
• Old friends for years can go through shifts within themselves that allow them to see each other truly for the first time.
• No other person is affected by attack for love to come forth.
• There are no feelings of competition or barriers to remove as barriers simply are not seen in this state of true love.
• Both people glow from this love.
• Both people are uplifted and inspired.
• Both people improve in their health and vitality.
• True love has honesty and trust in communication and expression.
• Creativity expounds and flows freely within the care of the love.
• Laughter is essential, two people who are not laughing together even in difficult times are not in this state of Divine Love.
• True love breaks the bonds of oppression, it is freedom in truth, it offers a reflection of something greater.

A healed relationship is a four-fold expression.  These four aspects may take time to fully develop but are all essential.

Physical Connection

• Trust in the physical world, safety within the physical expression, freedom from abusive behaviors, trust within the sexual expression, no fear of the other’s touch and physical interaction.
• Movement in the world, how flexible is physical location to both people. Are they compatible on this level?
• Healthy sexual attraction and expression that acknowledges the Divine. Both partners operating within their personal comfort range with out feeling pressured to do something outside their comfort range. Similar sexual drive and desire for the frequency of sexual activity
• Appropriate use of the creation energy that is formed through sexual connection. Procreation in its true form is the ultimate form of manifestation in the physical world. It is the creation of physical life itself. When two people join in sexual union who are not intending to create a new life in the world, this energy must be given intention. To not do so wastes God’s most precious gift to mankind, and the individual creation energy of the individuals involved. Both people must be in agreement of the use for this energy, there can be no covert agendas by one partner. As long as both people are in agreement and the intention is something that will not harm another part of the whole it may be applied to whatever the couple wishes to apply it to.
• Two people who are compatible in the amount and type of non-sexual touching they desire in their life. If one person wants a lot of non sexual touching and the other does not, the one who needs the touching as part of feeling nurtured will always feel unsatisfied. You cannot train someone to give you what you want. It must be their natural affinity.

Mental Connection

• Trust in sharing thoughts and ideas.
• The ability to communicate feelings effectively to one another.
• Honesty about self and your past expressions and future desires.
• Understanding of the partner and the ability to hear them and see their view points even if yours differ.
• Telepathic communication is natural to a healed relationship, finishing each other’s sentences and so forth is a normal expression of this mental connection.
• Anticipating the needs of your partner as your bond grows closer, but this is not based upon one partners expectation of the other it is simply a natural flow of being within each other’s thought flow and energetic patterns.

Emotional Connection

• Trust in opening heart to the other person. Respect!!
• Deep feelings of love. (based on the view of what love looks like shared above)
• Wanting the best for the other person.
• Compassion for the other person and the people this person loves other than you.
• Ability to share fears, especially the ones about the relationship.
• Nurturing your partner because you want to, not out of obligation or guilt.
• Both people allow creativity and inspiration to flow freely.
• The relationship is free of competition or comparison of the partners.
• Family connections and how the couple interacts with the two families involved has to be emotionally ok for both people.
• Shared views on majors issues that effect emotion such as the raising of children - moral issues

Spiritual Connection

• Trust at the deepest spiritual level that you are able to be who you truly are within the relationship.
• Deep and meaningful sharing between the partners, equal level of importance of the relationship in their lives.
• Healed relationships normally form out of a long series of past lives as mates.
• The two people do not necessarily have to share spiritual practice if the level of spiritual importance in their lives is equal and they can find compatibility in their philosophical perspectives on life. However, if both people are pursuing a spiritual path as the primary aspect of their lives, there must be a shared philosophy or two philosophies that harmonize perfectly.

Is that a lot?  YES, it is a lot, and it isn’t going to be maneuvered into place!  The Divine Christ within orchestrates it.  If you look at old relationships honestly, it is glaringly obvious which of these four areas was missing all together or seriously lacking.  By doing this it helps also to assess new relationships as they are forming.  It is really important to talk about all these things and preferably before you begin a sexual relationship with someone. (Assuming that the two people haven’t agreed to a completely no strings sexual encounter, which is a whole other story, that also requires complete honesty and knowing of self)

Hold your relationships up to these truths of love, as well as the four fold expression of love and see how they fit.  Where have they fallen short.  These places are the places to look to heal within.  There is no point to blaming the other person you had a relationship with, even for things that may have been their fault.  It is your own unhealed issues that brought that person to you.  There are no victims.  If you want a monogamous relationship and you brought someone to you who was not monogamous, it is because, despite your desire for monogamy, you do not feel worthy of one person’s dedication.  So you look within to find out why you don’t feel worthy of another person’s dedication.  Is it a parental issue, a past life?  Something you did to someone else previously in this life that left you feeling guilty?  You have to keep exploring the possibilities until you find the demons.  It very well may be all of the above!  It can take time and conscious effort and there may be multiple issues surrounding unhealed relationship patterns.  It can be done, but you have to really want to do it!

Certain manifestations of inner darkness, prevent this true love entering our lives.  This does not mean that people truly in love do not have any inner darkness, simply that the inner darkness they have manifests in different lessons than those that prevent this type of love experience, like control and manipulation.  These two things prevent honesty, an absolute key to the development of true love.  I have worked long and hard on myself with these issues, my whole family has.  It is hard, painful and lonely in a very desperate and longing way, but it does heal as the issues are discovered in their totality within and the core experiences are cleared allowing healing to unfold.  An unhealed relationship is just two people being lonely together!

Sexual predation is not an expression of love, it is unto itself.  We have a responsibility to elevate our sexuality and sexual expression to a higher vibration as we move toward enlightenment.  An old Tibetan teaching given to the monasteries by the Dharljas is;  Before entering a sexual partnership the couple should each seek within to see who the two people in each of their lives are that would be most affected by the choice.  If any of these four people would be deeply harmed then the couple should not commence with the sexual relationship.  This teaching deals with strictly the physical aspect of sexuality not taking into consideration the other aspects of a healed relationship, but is good teaching none the less.  It shows us that our choices for self have consequences beyond self and begins to teach us more on self-responsibility.  Hormones are hormones, we all have them and with long periods of celibacy that many on a spiritual path sometimes have they can get very intense, but to allow them to make the choice for the Divine Spirit instead of the other way around is absurd.  The absurdity of that choice is manifest all around in our current society of imbalance and loss of the sacred.

I am Tohawka, I come to you today to speak on the issue of healing.  There are many on this earth plane who now seek forms of healing other than what you would call this medical profession.  Understand me when I say that there are many who are healed by these doctors of yours and they do a great service in most cases.  There is perhaps, an area that they do not work with because it is one of spirit.  ALL illness or dis-ease is a problem of spirit, most of which is karma.  The karma to be worked out this lifetime is determined prior to your incarnating on this plane.  It is determined, by the Higher Self, that you will work out certain karma for the overall Spirit’s growth.  This karma can take several forms.  Alcoholism, drugs, yeast infection, cancer, indeed all forms of illness.  It may be decided that you will have an illness such as cancer, for say five years, and then this karmic debt will be cleared.  Those who get well by going to a medical doctor are those who have fulfilled their karmic debt.  That is why  people, on your plane, at times, have these recurrences of things such as cancer, for their karmic debt has not been balanced.

There are many on this earth plane who are excellent at healing, but, it must be understood that only those people who have balanced their karma will get well.  It doesn’t matter who is the healer or how great their power.  All karma can be erased or balanced by wisdom.  It is for this reason that I write to you now.  Through understanding this karma and why you bring this illness to yourself you can work toward balancing this and heal yourself.  This is also an important area I wish to discuss.  You must understand that you may go to any and all people of healing and nothing will happen until you are ready to have it happen.  The reality of healing is that YOU heal yourself.  No other person or spirit can heal you.  These people of healing are in most cases instrumental in helping you, but, you are the one that actually did the healing.  Do you see?

A physical form is merely a reflection of the spirit that resides within.  When the spirit is healed, the body responds in kind, so to speak.  All things are possible when one gains the wisdom.

All medical diagnosis using these cards is to be done in privacy.  Prior to shuffling the cards put all the cards in the upright position.  This will assure that the cards used will be in the position desired.  Shuffle thoroughly, thinking the name of the person to be diagnosed.  Tis is a three (3) card layout.

THE EAGLE

Chakra’s are blocked and the spirit is not being allowed to soar.

THE HAWK

Problems with eyes, eyesight.  Possible learning difficulties etc…

THE ELK

Intestinal problems, stomach, intestines, colon cancer possible, etc..

THE DEER

Problems of childhood or birth.  Birth defects, polio, mental retardation, downs syndrome, water on the brain, Reyes syndrome etc…

THE BEAR

Skin problems - acne, rashes, skin cancer, psoriasis, eczema, dermatitis etc..

THE SNAKE

Blood poisoning, systemic problems, (yeast) infections.

THE SKUNK

Brain tumor - possible stroke.

THE OTTER

Problems of the teeth, gums or mouth.

BUTTERFLY

Holes in the aura causing problems.

THE TURTLE

Problems with the feet.  Corns, ingrown toenails, fungus, hairline fractures.

THE MOOSE

Throat, voice, strep throat, possible throat cancer.

THE PORCUPINE

Broken bones, possibly one in the past that has healed improperly.

THE COYOTE

Liver problems - alcohol problem possible.

THE DOG

Female reproductive problems. Infertility, endometriosis, PMS cramps, etc..

THE WOLF

Drug problem.  Extreme possibility of death.  Heroin, cocaine, LSD, speed etc..

THE RAVEN

Head pains, Migraine headaches.

THE MOUNTAIN LION

Agility affected.  Pain in the legs, etc..  Affecting ability to move.  Torn ligaments possible.  Common problem with athletes.

THE LYNX

Nervous system problems.  Lack of circulation.  Tingling in the extremities.

THE BUFFALO

Heart problems.  disease, possible attack.

THE MOUSE

Infectious disease.  Aids, Veneareal Disease (VD), Communicable disease by other person.

THE OWL

Bladder problems.  Incontinent, Urethra infection, etc…

THE BEAVER

Communicable disease by insect or animal.  Malaria, Rabies, Plague.

THE OPOSSUM

Death.  Returning to spirit.  Nothing you can do.

THE CROW

This person wines, but is not sick at all.

THE FOX

This persons illness is minor and self induced to manipulate others.

THE SQUIRREL

This person has temporary discomfort due to new spiritual advancement.

THE DRAGONFLY

This is a temporary illness created by the higher self to get the attention of the potential.

THE ARMADILLO

There are problems sleeping.  Insomnia, nightmares, endocrine imbalance.  hypo or hyper thyroid, edrenal tumor.

THE BADGER

This is a hormonal imbalance.

THE RABBIT

This is a sugar related problem.  diabetes, hypoglysemia etc..

THE TURKEY

This is a glandular problem.

THE ANT

Any problems of this person are caused by excess weight.

THE WEASEL

Yeast, Yeast And More Yeast.  Serious problem  all symptoms are this Candida.

THE GROUSE

This is a problem of the spine.  Disk, back pain, lack of muscle strength.

THE HORSE

This person is dehydrated. possible constipation or obstructed bowel.

THE LIZARD

Instant karma.  This must run it’s course.

THE ANTELOPE

This person is in a dream state.  They may have loss of clarity, difficult vision. this person is not in beta.

THE FROG

This person is manifesting negative emotions inward.  If they change this behavior the healing they desire will take place.

THE SWAN

Food poisoning or has taken poison by accident or on purpose.

THE DOLPHIN

There are alergies to diary products and many grains.

THE WHALE

This person cannot be helped without a physical operation.

THE BAT

There is a chemical imbalance causing mental problems.

THE SPIDER

Web of various illnesses lay out a seven (7) card spread.

THE HUMMINGBIRD

Someone elses negativity is sucking life out of this person and causing them to lose energy and in turn create illness.

Tohakwa through Engtovo

These don’t include the animals that were added to the set at a later date, I’ve never had a version of the set with those extra cards

© 1989 Engtovo Bhodsvatan